Monday, May 31, 2004

Hot DAMN! There are a couple mistakes that Tommy and I found already. But I'm going to chaulk that up to my nitpickiness and the writers and animators not having a map and probably making contradictory placements in a few episodes that I can't recall off the top of my head. But by far this is the most detailed and in-depth map I have ever seen of my beloved imaginary town.

More foreign hits news: I got a hit today from the Dominican Republic. And I've been getting a couple from Jamaica, which must be Kayre. But the Dominican Republic hit has me just as baffled at the hit from Brunei last week.

Happy and sad... I finished off The Dark Tower V today before my nap. It is such a good story and it's actually interesting that it weaves in so many of Stephen King's other novels here and there, apparenty setting himself up for a cameo in a later edition. There was even a Harry Potter reference in this one! I just hope this doesn't get too Dickens-esque or it will get annoying. But now comes the hard wait until volume VI comes out. According to King's afterward, the final two books are already written and as of the publishing of Wolves of the Calla, both were at least in rough draft status. According to, Song of Susannah will be released June 8, so at least I don't want to wait too long for that one. And The Dark Tower is set for publication at the end September. Finishing all 7 books (I'm surprised it's not 19 or 99 books) is going to be quite sad, but I'm certain I could re-read them all over again, and knowing the eventual outcome, pick up a lot more clues in the story than I have this first time through.

On Friday night, there was a lock-in deal at my uncle's family's church for their youth group. So John and Lindsay, having just finished school, were very excited. John more so than anyone else, because they were going to play laser tag and go cosmic bowling. Well, John managed to bang his knee against a wall pretty hard and when I went to go pick them up at 2 AM it was all swollen. [Side note: I went to go pick them up at 2 AM because 1) my uncle just got home from a business trip in NY at 11 pm after leaving that same morning for NY at 5 AM and 2) they're leaving for France on Wednesday, and he didn't want his kids staying up all night and getting sick.] So John's knee had gotten quite swollen when I got up and by 6 PM Saturday, his knee was burning up, reddish, and quite puffy, and he was running a fever of 102. So it was off to the hospital where he was admitted with a rather nasty staph infection. How do you get a staph infection from banging your knee into a wall?? In any case, he's not doing so hot, and I know he's bummed that he probably won't get to go to France now and he was really looking forward to it. Poor kid. :(

Friday, May 28, 2004

This is part of the reason for a trip to Fairfax: IEEE-USA News Release (05/04/04): Unemployment Rate for Electrical Engineers and Computer Scientists Jumps in the First Quarter *sigh*
Basically, all this fruitless job searching around Atlanta has me a little depressed. Most of my friends are gone for the summer or graduated already and have moved on to other parts of the country. So I sit here in my basement feeling sorry for myself because I can't even seem to get my foot in the door any place. I wrote this huge rant last night while I couldn't sleep, but when I read it over, it was dripping with so much self-pity that it made even me tell myself to shut up.
Part of the problem right now is that I have nowhere to go on a daily basis. I've got plenty of video games and books and Legos and puzzles to keep me occupied, but I'm getting restless. So I've decided to pay Fairfax an early visit while my mom is off meeting up with my dad in India to celebrate their 25th anniversary. This way I can drive the Contour all week to see if I really want to keep it myself (as opposed to my massive Olds 88) and spend some time with my brother. Plus, there are some friends I haven't seen since Christmas, and in some cases even longer.
I'm getting cabin fever down here and the best cure is a change of scene with some old friends and a new job market to investigate. Admittedly, that investigation began with my government search earlier this week, but there are a lot of tech companies out near Dulles and along the I-270 corridor, so I'm going to go check it out.
There's a few other reasons too, but they're less important and not really worth mentioning here.

Advance Notice:
I will be in the Fairfax area from the afternoon of June 5 through the afternoon of June 12. Explanations will be forthcoming when I get around to it.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Insomnia, my arch-nemesis, has struck again... *sigh* At least I have my bridge building to keep me company in the wee hours of the morning. Between that and Roland of Gilead's lastest escapade on his quest for the Dark Tower (thanks Emily!), I can weather any sleepless night with ease.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

I earned my dinner tonight! John and Tommy have had the same problem with 3 separate lawnmowers of the same model. It's a self propelling mower and would work for a little while, then stop propelling. The engine would still run and the blade would cut, so really there was nothing preventing John from mowing the lawn, but you know how it is when you buy something brand new, all the features are supposed to work. So first he accidentally put diesel in the tank instead of unleaded today. After we got that drained and filled with unleaded and let the oily exhaust burn off for a few minutes, he went to work mowing. Until the wheels stopped turning again. So I went to investigate and dissasembled some things untilI found the problem. A wayward rubber band, presumably installed at the factory to keep things from shifting while in shipment, had gotten jammed into the drive pulley and then caught on a metal piece, thereby preventing the drive wheels from turning. So I removed the rubberband, and voila! Mower all fixed. So now I feel like I've actually done something useful today. Besides talking to Emily on the phone of course. ;) That was very useful for my spirits and is always a good motivator to keep looking for work. But fixing my uncle's mower has earned me a steak I'm quite certain.

Monday, May 24, 2004

Well, the unthinkable has happened. Yes, that's right, I'm referring to applying for a job with the government. I spent my day today filling out pages and pages and endless pages of information for the CIA, FBI, NSA, DOD, DOE, and State Department. Now I have a pounding headache. I think it's because every time I hit "Submit" I died a little inside. But I've exhausted all the job listings I could find for the private sector the last 2 weeks, so I thought I'd look into some government jobs this week while I let the good jobs refresh themselves.

Sunday, May 23, 2004

This sums it up pretty well, if only I had the grades to get into graduate school. Plus I'd still need to take my GREs. Not that I'm worried about doing poorly on them, but still. And I suspect it's too late at this point to apply for fall semester, so I'd have to wait until spring to start anyway. Guess it's back to the corner of Reality and Bytes for me.

The most unlikely referrer link I've had yet: Paradiso Resort & Beach Club. I also got an unrelated hit today from Brunei. I love when I get foreign hits, especially when I can figure out where they're from. When Katie Bowers was in Russia, I used to get *.ru pretty frequently. And with Emily in Brussels, I've started seeing *.be pop up. But *.bn was a new one to me, so I had to go check it out. I'm all transcontinental baby!

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Yet more good news: My parents' 25th wedding anniversary is in June. With my dad being stationed in Kabul, it seemed impossible for them to be together for the big celebration. However, it seems they've worked out a way for a business trip for my mom to New Delhi to coincide with a trip for my dad to the same place. Thus enabling them to spend their anniversary together. Okay, so it's not 10 days in Prague over Valentine's Day, but still an amazing accomplishment and one that I'm glad they were able to work out.

More small-step-in-the-right-direction good news: South Carolina legalized tattoo parlors again, though they still stuck to their bible belt guns on a couple issues. It is illegal to get a tattoo if you're under 18, regardless of getting your parents permission. You have to be 21 before you can wander into a parlor all by yourself. Between 18 and 21, you can get one, but only under parental supervision. How ridiculous is that? "Well congrats son, you're 18 now. I'm shipping you off to Iraq to get shot at. Here's some cigarettes, a couple pornos, and a voter registration card." "Can I get a tattoo before I leave?" "Hell no." Also, it is ilegal under the new law to operate any other business out of a tattoo parlor, like a piercing studio. The logic for this makes no sense to me. But congrats to all the 21 year olds in South Carolina who can now legally get a tattoo where they live instead of driving to Georgia. South Carolina is one stupid backwards state...and proud of it!

Good news: I heard from Emily on Friday and it made my day :) She says Brussels is beautiful and the other people she's there with are a lot of fun. She's meeting her host family today I believe, so I'm curious to hear what the t'Kints are like. Now that I've been in touch with Emily over there I feel much better.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

I guess I should probably go eat something. I've been in and out of bed since 10 AM and haven't eaten anything since dinner yesterday. I'm not really hungry though. I hope I'm not getting sick...

To make matters worse today, they already filled the Panasonic job I was after. But when I got a call from Motorola's headhunters yesterday, I was pretty stoked anyway. The Motorola job was only a 3 month contract, but I figured it would be a foot in the door that might lead to something more permanent, or at least give me a paycheck while I continued my job hunt. So I adjusted my resume a little bit and returned it to the headhunter who forwarded it to the people at Motorola. So I called her back today to see what the status was and she said she just finds qualified people and submits their resumes to Motorola and then its out of her hands. So I asked who she sent it to so I could call them to follow up, but no no, she's not allowed to give me that info. "Motorola will call you if they think you're the best match for the job," she says. Bullshit. Motorola's HR department is never going to call me. Looking for a job is so damned frustrating, especially for someone who hates using the telephone as much as I do.

I've been a disaster since I woke up today. Yesterday I felt pretty good even though Emily was leaving, but I think since I knew she'd be in Atlanta (albeit at the airport) that she was still within reaching distance (I really had to fight the urge to drive over to Hartsfield and buy a ticket to anywhere cheap just to kiss her again). But today when I woke up I really felt like something was missing. Everything I see or do seems to remind me of times we've spent together. Now that I know she's really gone I can't get her out of my head. For the last 9 months, I don't think we've ever gone more than 48 hours without talking to each other either via email, phone, or IM. It's now been over 24 and I'm not really expecting to hear from Emily every day while she's in Brussels, maybe once a week. I guess I'll get used to it. I just can't believe I'm such a wreck. It's not like we've broken up or anything. Or that her absence was unexpected. I guess I just didn't exepect this to hit me so hard. One day down, 46 to go. *sigh*

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

So I'm back from Savannah. I said goodbye to Emily this afternoon until July 5. Well, I'll get to talk to her while she's in Brussels, but I won't get to see her (at the earliest) until then. And actually, I don't think "goodbye" ever left my mouth today. Which is a testament to how much better today went than 2 weeks ago at my graduation party. Today really felt like "have a great time and I'll see you soon" instead of "goodbye" and that's a very comforting thing :) Not that I didn't cry (which turned out to be good too; my sinuses haven't felt this clear in months), but it was a much happier way for us to part than being torn apart by her parents. It's also the reason I left today instead of going to the airport to see her off tomorrow. Having a deadline of when all the "I love yous" and "I'll miss yous" need to be said makes it really hard. Today I had nowhere to be and no time I had to be there, so if we needed to stand outside holding each other for half an hour in the sun that had just peeked out from behind storm clouds, we could do so. No one was going to push her through security and out of my arms.
Anyway, we had a great extended weekend together. We went to the beach one day and took a nice walk to the end of the island. We watched The Princess Bride at an outdoor screening one evening. We wandered around downtown Savannah a little bit and finally made it to the colonial cemetery with graves dating back to the 18th century. To continue the deathly trend, we took a ghost tour (hosted by an overly perky girl named Coral who claimed to be Unsolved Mysteries' Robert Stack's niece and drank Starbucks) which was a lot of fun wandering through the old Savannah squares hearing about all the dead people who supposedly haunt their old houses. We also were treated to dinner at Bella's by Emily's parents. Mmmmm. Otherwise, we just had a nice relaxing weekend together spending lots of time cuddled up on the couch. It was exactly what we both needed before being separated by the Atlantic Ocean.
I'm still sad that she's leaving, but I know she'll be having such a fantastic time gallivanting around Europe while I stay here to hunt for a job. And 6.5 weeks isn't really that long, right? As long as I stay busy, it will just fly by, and before I know it, Emily will be back in my arms. :) In case I haven't made it abundantly clear over the past several months (and for those of you who haven't pointed out how uncharacteristically happy I seem these days), I am so in love with this girl.

Friday, May 14, 2004

Gone to Savannah for the weekend to see Emily before she leaves for Brussels for 6.5 weeks. Back Tuesday. Call the cell if you need me.

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Less than 24 hours until hugs and kisses in Savannah!!

The reason I don't believe in my horoscope is the same reason that I find birthstones pointless. It's just so vague and only half-right occasionally. I'm sure if you get a big enough group of people together that all have some common trait, like being born in April, they will all have a few other common characteristics like, I dunno, being human, or having 10 fingers. Anything brought to you by Quizilla is about as far from scientific as can be, but I thought I'd post this anyway. I disagree with most of it, but of course self-reporting is invariably flawed. I'm boldfacing the things I agree with and you can feel free to post your own differing opinions.

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional (perhaps more so in recent years). Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver (sic) can see.

What does your birth month say about you?

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Prince of Persia is so awesome!! Why oh why did I wait so long to get it? It's very linear, but it feels so free-form. You can walk all over walls and climb up and down everything. Got bless ancient franchises that have been very successfully revived. :)

Stupid free hosting service... They're changing their policy to not allow remote linking of files over 100k in size, which is why some of my links/pictures aren't showing up right now. I'm going to try to shrink the files or link them some other way somehow.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

My uncle's neighborhood is a lot hillier on foot than it is by car... I ran tonight for the first time in like 3 years probably. It was painful. All the long hills didn't help matters. I ran about half a mile out of my planned 2 mile circuit and decided that maybe 1 mile would be a good start for the first strenuous physical exercise I've had in a long time. So I did my whole mile, and about passed out when I walked back in the door. My resting heart rate is about 60 bpm and my target rate from back when I used to run track was between 120 and 140. Anything much higher than that just used to make me feel sick. Well, tonight my pulse was a nice 150ish when I finished running. No wonder I wanted to pass out ;) Oh well. The first 2 weeks of running I knew were going to be painful, but after that my body should begin to adjust again and then it'll be all downhill. And then back up, then down, up down up down. Stupid hilly suburbia...

My Unearth record finally showed up yesterday. I know I've mentioned it before, but I was very excited to get it :) It's super sexy clear vinyl. Not as hot as my Earth Crisis Breed the Killers record in ultra sexy translucent red vinyl, but The Stings of Conscience is a better record musically, so I'm willing to sacrifice a little bit.

As penance for my excitement over shoe shopping I decided it was necessary to replace my serpentine belt today. For those that don't know, it's the rubber belt that drives all the accessories in your car, like the power steering pump, water pump, alternator, and air conditioner compressor, among other things (varies by car). Tommy and I did it once upon a time on a back road in Fairfax when my belt snapped after church one day. Well, actually, we said "to hell with it," went to see a movie, then called AAA, but managed to fix it ourselves with an ice scraper and a squeegee (I do not recommend doing it this way) before the AAA guy showed up. So I figured, if the two of us could do it with the wrong tools, I could do it myself with the proper tools. Naturally, it took longer than I expected, but it's all fixed. The only problem I really encountered was trying to see the idler pulley tension indicator because they put the indicator behind the power steering pulley where you need something like a dentist's mirror to see it. So I borrowed a makeup compact from my cousin. Problem solved. And I got quite dirty in the process. I feel like a man again. No more shoe excitement.
I'm Dirrty with 2 R's...

Graduation pictures from my grandfather are here. He often takes pictures at the same time as someone else, but doesn't announce it, so a lot of the time he catches people before they're ready or when they're looking somewhere else, but sometimes that's just as much fun.

Monday, May 10, 2004

Adam's Gripe of the Day (or Why Seeking Employment is a Full-Time Job):
So I spent several hours today calling a few places to get a name and address of who I should mail copies of my resume to. I was reminded of why I didn't go to the last Career Fair at Tech. I received the same response from every place I called: "Oh, you can just submit that info online." Which initially seems like a great idea because I can do it on my own time and don't have to interact with anyone, right? Wrong. Every employer has a different system for how they want you to enter your information. Very few of them will accept the nicely-formatted PDF version of your resume you went to all that trouble over. So after spending an hour inputting my data to NSA (what a horrible system they have where you have to look up codes for everything..) I decided to attack Lockheed. Halfway through, their server encounter "internal server errors." Oh well. Now, what really bugs me is that all this data entry used to be someone's job. Thanks to the miracle of the internet and the PC revolution, companies can keep thousands (millions?) of resumes on hand without taking up valuable floorspace. But they all want the information in a certain format so it's easy to search. This used to be someone's job. When a company received resumes, this person entered the data into a computer. To cut costs, they fired these people, hired a CS major to write a simple little data gathering program and stuck it on their website. Now entering all this info is MY job instead. Which is basically fine, except that every company wants it done a different, more complicated way. And in addition to all this hassle, submitting a bunch of 1's and 0's is never going to get me a job. All this data sitting on a server somewhere with millions of other people's data isn't getting anyone hired. To get a job under this system, you need to have a contact in the company who will take your nicely formatted piece of paper and show it to his/her boss who will say, "hire him," and then pass your resume on to HR for processing. All this internet bullshit is just a waste of time. Which brings me back to the beginning - why I was calling places in the first place. *sigh* And it's only Day 1 of my summer of job searching. I'm not discouraged yet, just annoyed.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

I also rewarded myself with a trip to Best Buy where I picked up the most recent Myst sequel (Uru: Ages Beyond Myst) which I'm stoked about, and, finally, Prince of Persia! Yay! Also, I got Hidden Hands of a Sadist Nation because it was $9.99 and Darkest Hour (even on Victory) rocks so hard.

I feel like such a girl. I just spent $150 on shoes, and I'm genuinely excited about it. My old dress shoes have just about bit the dust, so I decided it was time for a new pair of shoes. Now that I'm a college graduate, I figure the same 2 pairs of brown and black shoes I've had since high school just aren't going to cut it anymore. DSW is a great place for shoes though, because I got 2 new pairs of dress shoes from Sketchers and Rockport and a new pair of New Balance running shoes.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

Pictures of my new living space are available here.

Today's Hilarious Comment Taken Completely Out Of Context:

emilytsav: i think his butt might need a little screwdriver

Friday, May 07, 2004

Hooray for internet! Apparently, this phoneline/usb dealie actually does work fairly well. I'm not sure why it wasn't working with my laptop last night, but whatever, it seems to be working now. From my good friends at DSL Reports: 1096 kbps down ans 204 kbps up (close enough to the published values of 1.5Mbps and 256 kbps). Now to set the DHCP lease time to something longer than 1 hour...

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Well, everything's out of my apartment except my food (and my computer, obviously). I'm coming back for the food tomorrow with a big cooler so I can keep the frozen stuff cold. Fortunately, most of what I have left doesn't need to be kept cold (cereal, macaroni, spaghetti, chips, etc) so tomorrow should go pretty quickly, then I'll turn in my keys and be done with Park@Vinings forever! Except that I really like this apartment complex and the surrounding area and even though Christine doesn't flirt with me like Sabrina did with Brian (she sent him a Christmas card!), I still like the staff here. So I wouldn't be averse to moving back here assuming it didn't vastly complicate my commute once I get a job. Anyway, I'm going to watch the last episode of Friends (hey, quit laughing!), pack up my computer, and head back to my new basement abode for the night.

Hooray!! The final audit for my degree has been completed and I now officially have earned a BS in Electrical Engineering. :)

As for internet at my uncle's house, because I'm 2 stories down from the router, wireless won't reach, and I have enough cable to get down there, but I don't want to run 200 feet of cable all over the house (well, I want to...), so I'm trying this thing that Bellsouth gave him. It plugs into the phone line and then has a USB adapter to the computer. So right off, I knew it would suck. It supposedly can operate up to 10Mbps, but I benchmarked it last night using DSL Reports and I was getting 1kbps down and 9 kbps up. Yeah. That's worse than a 2400 baud modem downstream. This must be remedied as soon as possible. I will shrivel up and die using something that archaic. I just might have to route some cat5 through a heating duct or something so I don't lose my mind.

Stupid gas prices. Yesterday QT was $1.64, which is bad enough, but today it's $1.79. Since when do gas prices jump 15 cents overnight?? *sigh* Pretty soon I'm not going to be able to attend job interviews because I can't afford the gas to get me there...

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

I'll be spending the night at my new place tonight, but then I have probably two trips worth of stuff to still bring over tomorrow. I'm taking my laptop tonight, so hopefully I can get the internet hooked up downstairs for myself, but if not, I'll be online eventually, and you can always call my cell if you need me.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

From Jenny's blog:
On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favorite line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line. Then, have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. No cheating!

1. I'll try some Cocoa Puffs today/What the fuck is Sonny anyway?
2. I'm gonna be red white and bluer than you/I'm gonna be the proud and fewer than you/The most star-splanglest you ever knew
3. I wanted nothing more than to have my day/This dream still lives inside of me/This will never fade
4. Tomorrow comes much faster than anyone can believe/Your soul is crying anguish
5. We'll make it through/Cause you love me and I love you/Even though we're eight states apart/I hold you close in my heart
6. Fuck tha police/Comin' straight from the underground
7. I'll never know how hard you tried/You'll never know my sacrifice/I'm sorry if only you saw the light/These torn out wings cannot fly
8. You can take your war and shove it up your ass, then close your eyes and say goodbye
9. Angst for you/Angst for me/Angst for this whole damn hypocrisy
10. Get! Sick! Mother! Fucker!
11. Spent the last few days wide awake/And I don't know how much more I can take/I only have one life to live/And I want to give it all I can
12. Race, Religion, sex, and creed we're all the same/I want to open your veins to see if your blood is real
13. Swingin' to the drums/Swingin' to guitar/Swingin' to the bass/In the back of my car
14. You had it but you lost it to play it safe/You'd take the wrong road if it was the easy way/You'd sooner be forgotten than die with grace/So no one listens when you say what you say
15. Save your strength for the first disappointment/Break this mirror that changes you
16. I've been a lie/I've told a lie/But I'm trying to get it better/Each day I try
17. You know the rule goes: where there's a hoe there's a hater/Well there's some hoes over there and I concentrate on the haters later
18. Tortured from the day I began to die/This pain inflicted feeds my rage/Tear this world down
19. And then they'll know I shot JFK/Mass Media: Mass murderers of the truth/Lying my way towards 15 minutes of fame
20. I can never give out/Because mine is right/My fight is truth

Hint: On a randomized playlist of 2000 songs, what's the likelihood of 2 songs from the same band being next to each other in the first 20?

FOUR POINT OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got an A in Audio and and A in French Revolution, ans since those were the only 2 classes I took for a letter grade, I got a 4.0 this semester, which would be Faculty Honors if I'd taken 12 hours for a grade and gotten A's in all my classes, but would for sure be Dean's List because I got B's (in actuality, I got S's) in both my pass/fail classes. My equivalent GPA for the semester would have been a 3.5, and my overall GPA for college has now come up above a 2.5 to the great and wonderful 2.56 level and my major GPA up to a 2.8. Yay!!!

Monday, May 03, 2004

Also, I thought I'd mention that I'm not really very sore yet. Maybe tomorrow, but I feel pretty good right now. Tired, but not sore. Yay!

I'm exhausted!! We picked up the truck at 9:30 this morning, but I've been up and working since 8. My dad and I took a bunch of stuff over to the storage unit and then took my furniture and a few things I had ready to go already over to Tommy's. My apartment looks so empty now! It's just a few things I've been protecting in my closet, my computer, and my kitchen stuff. That will all go over in the next couple days. Anyway, we finally dropped the truck off at 7 pm, and then I came back and watched The Simpsons. I've taken a shower, and now I'm watching Monster Garage, then I'll see how I'm feeling. I might finish taking down my posters, or I might just go to bed.

I had the weirdest dream last night. Well, this morning really. I was in my old AP Government class form high school with Stroud. A couple of the same kids were in the class. It was the end of the year and we were doing presentations on our chosen state (which we actually did). And we had each put together a 15 minute video to go along with our presentation so we were watching all those, which meant a lot of passing notes and talking quietly instead of paying attention. And a group of girls were in the class who were very "Dixie Chicks-esque" but much younger. And one of the girls sisters one in the class too, and I had a huge crush on her. But they were all southern gals and for part of their presentation these Dixie Chick wannabees sing a song about how boys from the east coast were the Devil. And so of course this girl I was interested in was getting nothing but "stay away from him, he's evil" from her sister since I was an East Coast boy and she was a Southern girl. It was very weird. She was genuinely interested in me, but scared of what her sister would say if we were together. I suppose it had some sort of hidden meaning to it, most dreams tend to do that, but right now I have more important things to worry about, like picking up a U-Haul and moving furniture. Whoo.

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Picture fest! Sorry if it takes forever to load... Clicking an image will open a larger version in a new window. More pictures that I haven't cleaned up yet are available here.

I beat you, I finally beat you school! As a final act of defiance, I'm trampling some flowers to get this picture. Now all that remains is to raze the parking office...

Having my sweetheart by my side to congratulate me made sitting still for 3.5 hours seem pretty inconsequential. My earbuds (that almost look like honor cords) blasting Rancid's And Out Come The Wolves helped too. ;)

Whoo! I'm edumacated now!

Even hardcore kids can enjoy mylar birthday balloons!

CEF1243 (4:28:59 PM): well, it's your party and you can cry if you want to
Auto response from XchaosdawningX (4:28:59 PM): emily's gone and my party just isn't a party anymore. :'(

It might be my party, but it's not a party without Emily, and it's not really my party even though it's for me. My parents are in charge, and all I want to do is lock myself in my bedroom and cry, but no no, I have to open presents 30 seconds after Emily's parents whisked her away with tears in her eyes. I'll see her in Savannah in 2 weeks but suddenly everything has this finality to it. There's no guarantees anymore about our relationship. (Except that I love you Emily! That will never change.) But until I get a job lined up it's impossible to say whether or not that I'll be waiting right here for her when she gets back from Brussels. And right now that's the only thing in the world I want and the only thing no one can give me. I should be ecstatic today about having graduated from college finally, but Emily leaving about an hour ago completely took the wind out of my sails. I miss her already.

oh my god it's early... on the plus side, i can watch the sun come up. stupid commencement.

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